wow... topless drummers... hot keyboardists... lisps... stickers... tyson... dirty little secret... dizzy... waterandrainbowsandmaddiandtrainsandHOTG UYandlovesongandavalondriveanddancingand jumpingandscreamingandsweatingandTYSONan ddroolandwowandwowandawowandwowandWOW...

1 1/2 hours till i can eat again... YAY!!
lol, only bothered to read the Famine booklet last night and saw the "do not skip food if you have a heart problem" i freaked for a bit then thought, stuff it. i did it last yr and im technically no different to last year, so ill be right.

so hungry...

AAR CONCERT TOMORROW!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! so excited!!! cant wait.

my darling quentin leaves on tues, so i may never see him again, as we have monday off. he is such a sweetie and iv really enjoyed him being here. i miss him terribly. (not that id tell him that )

also my good friends Kanayo and Yuiri have left, and i think they fly out on tues as well. was a very teary afair saying good bye to them, as it always is when the jap girls leave.

thats all i can be bothered writing for now. not a whole lot going on anyway. i think ill go and watch some more episodes of Coupling... wheeee.

night all! xoxox

as i sit here typing to you i have numerous wires protruding from me, conglomerating at the moniter which is reading my heartbeat, which is sitting inside an oh-so-funky/trendy/stylish/ going to be the next fashion... bumbag!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

as you can maybe tell, my whole attitude towards this has changed somewhat since my doc appointment. its not such a big thing. if theres something wrong theres something wrong. for now i can live with the belief theres nothing wrong. (ok, well apart from the fact that the wires keep itching me, which is a pretty good reminder, but shhh). now i just have to work out how i sleep with this thing on... ergh.

in my other daily news, i have done no homework. a day off school and not a thing done. oops.

but saying that, im not too sad (lol) coz we are having tempura for dinner (ie. seafood and vegetables in japanese batter.... yummmmmmm!)

hope you are all well and not at all itchy, coz it SUCKS!

*cries bitter tears of anguish*

after being in this relationship for almost 18 months, i have seen the first signs of demise.

its like he's changed, all of a sudden. he doesnt even look the same anymore. i just dont know what to do. i feel like i dont know how to press his buttons any more, and that scares me.

sure, wev had our troubles; i think other girls write to him a lot, i feel i do all the comunicating, hes always so grey and dull and sometimes he just isnt available for me, but i love him.

there you go, i said it. i love DA. he is my one. my only.





yeah... a tad scared by the new look DA... freakin' out man!!



p.s. hippy birthday to darling madsy-poos. 17!! yay!

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[updates] heart is ok... im just overly concious of it beating especially when i run. hasnt stopped me yet tho. tests start wednesday.